A Dream Within a Dream

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow —
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand —
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep — while I weep!
O God! Can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

A dream within a dream. One of my favorite poems and what this business has felt like. One of my dreams is to own a patisserie – cafe, making chocolate is in the realm of that dream.

I know this may be rather sudden for most of you, but I’m ending Dark Love Unusual Chocolate. Some of the best things in life are fleeting, and really, nothing is forever no matter how much we’d like them to be. There are several reasons for this very difficult decision. Mainly, I’ve hit a wall. If I keep going, I believe I will have a mental break down and then it will end in a far worse way. I was going to try and hold out until after Valentine’s Day, but then as it happens, life happened. Or should I say death happened. Which brings me to the second reason. Grief. I lost a family member recently and running a business based on grief is difficult. It’s given me a lot of time to reflect on my own death and coming to terms with the fragility of life, but it doesn’t seem to have helped with accepting this loss. I hope my work has encouraged all of you to think more about your own mortality and how important it is to do what you find meaningful in your life regardless of what it is. Meaning doesn’t always equal money either which brings me to the third reason. I’ve been breaking even on expenses until now. But that’s not a business plan that will enable the business to survive. So again, better to end it now rather than in ruin. I’m sure some of you are thinking that I could take a pay cut to help, that’s where financials usually come from first, right. But here’s the thing, in the two and a half years I’ve been doing this, I wasn’t ever able to pay myself. Can’t divide zero. I was ok with that though, it was never my goal to get rich. I’m lucky enough to have a partner willing to support me so that making money wasn’t the focus.  The stories I’d hear from you guys and the compliments were enough for me. I could afford to work for happiness. Your compliments, kind thoughts, and stories of who you were able to make happy, even yourselves, with what I made meant (and still means) everything to me. I love you all, thank you all so much for going down this “road less traveled” with me. 

Before this goes on too long (like it already has because the ending kind of goodbyes are always difficult); I plan on putting together a recipe book of the flavors I created. Some I’ve published as product and some I haven’t. If you’re interested in updates or the book, stick around. There’s the email list that will remain active.  

One day I may revive Dark Love when I open that cafe, until then I wish all of you all the best. On to the next chapter of life now 🙂